I spent last weekend at another Level I Essential Oil training class. Before I got there I found myself being drawn to an oil called Melissa. Melissa comes from the common plant known as lemon balm. It grows profusely in many places but it only gives a small amount of oil for its volume. Melissa is pretty expensive so I was a little hesitant to make a big commitment to it for that reason. But when I read that Melissa is the essence which will bring up those patterns you thought you were already done with and really finish them off, I decided to go for it.
So I used some on Saturday night before bed. As I lay waiting to fall asleep I became aware of a large "cube" in the area of my heart chakra. It felt like it was choking my heart chakra and compressing my physical heart and lungs. I just stayed with it till I fell asleep which was at least 1/2 hour. Then when I got up in the morning, I leaned over to do something and it felt like a stake was being pulled out of my heart. And since then I have found myself being able to breath more easily. I don't really know at an intellectual level what this means but I do feel like something was dissolved from my heart chakra. Thank you Melissa.
And since I had such good results on Saturday night I used Melissa again Sunday night. That night it took me quite a while to fall asleep. As I lay there, a song started going through my head. It was that old song "I Want You to Want Me." So the words I was getting were "I want you to want me. I need you to need me" over and over again along with the melody. And I knew that I was talking to my mother who had sent me away from home when I was a baby for what seemed to her like a good reason at the time. And when I was returned home, there was another baby in my bed. And even though as an adult, it all makes sense, I'm guessing that, as an infant, it didn't make sense. I was sent away to strangers. They kept me for a while. Then I was sent back. And when I got back, someone else was in my bed. That's a pretty intense pattern to grow up with and I'm sure it affected every relationship I had throughout my life. I thought I had released that pattern a while back. But there it was again. Thank you Melissa.
The next morning, my partner left the camper early and I stayed in bed for a little while. All of a sudden my little cat Chachie was in bed with me. Chachie went to kitty heaven about 5 years ago. She was 13. She ran away when we moved and I couldn't find her. After about 2 months I got a call from a former neighbor who had moved a shed and found her still alive under the shed. She must have been there that whole time. She had gone blind and only weighed about 3 pounds. But when I got to her and picked her up she knew me and immediately started to purr. When I got her home, she was so weak she couldn't eat or drink or even really move. I took her to the vet and the vet helped her cross over into kitty heaven. It was a good thing. But that morning, there she was in bed with me purring and romping around and snuggling just like she used to do every other morning for all those years. Once again, thank you Melissa for that little round of closure with Chachie.
So I bought some Melissa. Yes, it's expensive. But I believe it's going to be worth it. I have no idea how many patterns I have yet to fully release. But Melissa will find them and help me with them. Thank you Melissa.
